New Year Resolution – Stand for you rights, what you deserve for.

Actually the above is not my resolution of the year …Thats the change i want to see in myself…

As a daughter, sister, wife, daughter in-law, sister in-law, mother, employee, employer, senior, junior, friend…I guess in all my roles I never demanded for what I deserve. I always think that if I deserve I will get what I want…But in true world that’s not the case. 

I for the longest time now want to stand up for myself but I consistently fail. Why?? What I fear for, why I fear…I shouldn’t be in this position. Maybe I fear rejection. And hate uneasy mess in my world! I want a positive, happy environment around me all the time and that’s why I always want to keep people around me happy. What I can do for people around me..I try and do every bit of it, I walk that extra mile to keep smiles. But do I get my due in return..Well, not always. 

My family I know will stick around me all the time, but what about my other relationships. My efforts here will be paid off in long run.          But My friends..For whom I might be just any other friend whom they will forget once their purpose is sorted. My colleagues, who might just use me for their benefit and take out work from me and then move on in their life. My seniors at work, who again just want their work done and a pleasant face around them who doesn’t cribs and complains about anything.  People who work for me, maybe they are just happy sticking around me as I make no noise about job not done and don’t poke nose in the way they do their jobs…AND I in between of all this stand like a sponge ball.. Absorbing everything and wanting to spread happiness by not creating problems in others life by asking for anything for my own self. 

But does all this works for me…To some extent YES…As my people happy = Me happy 

But again, if I start asking people to give me or behave in a way I deserve for..Will that change the situation for any better. ? 

I have found I guess a good friend cum young sister kinds in one of my colleagues Isha…She is like fire to me..Always glowing, fearless, knows how to say NO, never apologetic for standing for her rights..What she feels she deserves for she would just go for it …Speaks her heart out & That’s what I want to become! (In some ways no too ๐Ÿคฃ that I can discuss later)

I hope am able to make this year a fantastic one. The change has to be made from within and the urge to change things for the better has been growing in me for a while now. I wish for overall well-being and nurturing of self-confidence and positive thinking for myself & everyone connected to me. God please help me in my mission. ๐Ÿ™โœŒ๏ธ

Love,

Sujata ๐Ÿ’•

I have nothing to WrItE BUT I will…and you must ReAd…

Why am I writing here when I have nothing specific to share!!?? Why am I trying to think..think hard…what am I trying to think??!!        Is it about life..my life..your life…about my child’s future life… strange…Donn know what.! Seriously!!  But exactly that’s the thought…does it happens to you..!? Am sure it does…we all keep thinking, keep our brains busy almost all the time. Thinking about what to do next, or why did we did something in the past…Our thoughts keep wandering without any anchor and we just don’t know where to pull ourselves back or put a stop on our brainless use of our own brains…

Somekind of passion, somekind of craziness….my stupid heart is talking about all these hundreds of things to me …

What’s the fun in talking sense always…its good to just flow in your thoughts and come to no exact conclusions… thinking about your past & present failures and successes with life, love, marriage, relationships, academics, work life, expectations, parents, affairs, bosses, crushes, travels, what I could have shopped that day, the street side vendor, my maid’s kids, an Ambani’s life, Shahrukh Khan, Branjila’s divorce, anything…

Believe me it will refresh you in a new way..

Goodnight peeps. Sleep tight, dream well..& those who are starting their day, rise and shine..be radiant ..like always. Remember “You are better than your competition…”

Love, Sujata ๐Ÿ’•

P.S. Thanks to my baby who slept well on time today & my husband who’s surprise presentation preparation at office today gave me this ME time with myself..and now I will sleep tight..sleep light …